Whoa! I am so glad that God put this on my heart to be what I did for Lent. It has been such an incredible blessing to hear from God through his many men and women who preach and profess His name. My spiritual life over the last few months has been a bit rocky, riddles with so many questions, many of which I still hope to get answers to, but something has changed. Over the last 18 days as I have listened to various preachers teach on various topics, I have felt a certain sense of humility that has told me to view my questions differently, and to put God’s sovereignty above and before any and all of my questions. My questions about God, about His character and His heart, about what He says on certain topics, can be good, but they can also be bad. They are bad if I am asking them from a place of desiring to challenge God, almost saying “if You are really God, then why is this and this that way? Why can’t You make it this other way?” They can also become bad when I ask questions just for the sake of asking questions, without actively and genuinely seeking answers, and keeping my heart open to what the truth is, and not just what I want it to be. All these questions, no matter how great or consequential, they do not take away from the fact that God is God and He is all in all. These questions can be very good if asked from the angle of trying to know God better, to love Him more and to understand His heart, and I think God has been shifting the position of my heart to where it ought to be. Again, I still have a lot of questions that I hope to get answers to one day, but I also understand that I might never get answers to these questions and that’s okay, God remains the same either way.
My sermon today is by T. D. Jakes. It’s the first T. D. Jakes sermon I am listening to ever, and man… just listening to him preach inspires the awe of God. I feel like if I ever had the chance to sit and have a meal with him, I would just want him to speak on and on and share the beauty of God that he has known. A week or so ago I listened to my first Joel Osteen sermon, and that blew my mind. I was not expecting to enjoy the sermon. I had once tried listening to his daily podcast and I couldn’t get through 5 minutes of it, but for some reason watching the sermons made a world of a difference to me. His messages are so simple yet so powerful. He’s definitely the preacher I’ve been listening to the most. Here’s the first of his sermons I watched: Travel Steadily | Joel Osteen – such a wonderful message. The great thing was that when I watched it it lined up perfectly with where I was in my Bible reading!
Then there’s Joyce Meyer. I had a period in junior/senior year of college where I would listen to the Joyce Meyer podcast daily and I really loved that, and now watching her sermons is even more enjoyable. She is such a wise speaker, and I almost always feel challenged by something she says each time I listen. A few days ago, in the video I watched she was talking about being right, and about how to maintain peace and unity you sometimes just have to let it go. “Being right is overrated,” she said, and I tensed up, because that’s something that’s a real challenge for me – to concede when I know I am right. But then I have myself the question: what is the cost of being right here? I am losing more than I am gaining? What, if anything, am I actually gaining by being right?

If you wanna listen to that gem of a sermon, it’s right here: The Sweetness of Unity | Joyce Meyer | Enjoying Everyday Life. She went on to say that even when you are convinced that you are right, you should be open to the possibility that you are wrong especially as you enter conversation.
Overall, I’ve just really been loving this experience. There are still areas that I am a little reluctant to watch sermons on simply because I know I am going to be extremely challenged and I don’t know if I’m ready for that, but as Joel Osteen says: travel steadily – faithfulness wins the race.
Alrighty… I think that’s all I have for today…
Hasta la proxima!
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QueenJoy